Everyone expects the shadow of something underneath,
\nwith the current struggle being an obvious deflect through gritted teeth
\nbut the search below is simply an illusion as I am losing the ability to breathe,
\nbeginning to crumble as I bumble on stage, wondering if there is any worth beneath.<\/p>\n
This song of my heart is wrong but I only want to belong
\nTo something bigger than myself, but I get triggered,
\nBody going into rigor as I figure there is no way I can reconfigure
\nThis heart to this mind, so I say I’m fine, while the insides break apart
\nRealizing that this pain I chain to my soul is lifelong.<\/p>\n
Expectations rise as I start to despise the lies that I can now realize.
\nI am agonized by the truth of being misadvised in my youth.
\nMy uncouth demeanor starts to get meaner as the dreamer in me dies.
\nI try to rise above the the loss of love inside to resurrect the deject man who died,
\nBack in that room that became a tomb stealing two sons instead of just one.<\/p>\n
I’ve rejected and deflected against any greatness that one could witness,
\nTrying to destroy this life in a great ploy to get even with the heathen that took my friend.
\nBut that has only let the pain extend and so it’s time to ascend out of this hole,
\nAnd end the self-torture I attend, forgiving myself so I can start living and be whole.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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